“Of course I want to die. However, if I died, what would happen to the Xiuli Army? They have always been loyal to me. We take care of each other. Now they are being called traitors. If I died, who would protect them? To me, they are not just my subordinates, but also my family. It is my duty to bring them back to Yan Bei. Even if we can’t go back, I need to make their lives easier. I need to stay strong, no matter how hard life is.”